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The B​-​Room Diaries, Vol. II: Secondhand Smoke

by Melodime

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1.
It's about time you noticed my affliction Though I seem fine I'm living in remission In the meantime I'll move in my direction With a disguise and hopeful aspiration I won't stay, stay in place I'm shakin' And this earth can't control my achin' Stay, stay, oh please don't hate me I'm a child of the moon now, baby Gravity has no pull when I'm on mission A bendable rule when fighting opposition Can I keep cool when floating at a distance? A hand to hand duel against my own resistance
2.
Front porch kings and queens Smokin' cloves in your skinny jeans Painting pictures of hollow dream They got answers, they don't need a thing With a drink in hand Tellin' tales of how they rule the land Standin' proud in their pop rock band Might I have the crumbs beneath your feet? I ain't gonna run, I ain't gonna run Unless it's head first into you Steady as the sun, we have just begun To take up arms with the avenue I ain't gonna run, I ain't gonna run Unless it's head first into you Beat down silly, no pennies, dead broke But I won't stand and choke in your secondhand smoke Front porch kings and queens If you're the face of this music scene Than I guess this ain't home to me There's an end and you are not the means But you can think you are You can fake it with your homemade scars Talk of how you really journeyed far But rock'n'roll ain't gifted how you think I know, I know that the greater good's outside the hood of the avenue And I know, I know that the puppets on strings can't dance and sing how they want to I know, I know that we won't change for the sake of fame just like they do And I know the road and I walk it bold Head strong, no guts, no glory
3.
Puppet 04:24
Force on me your fantasy like predetermined destiny is your choice Then raise me politically yet mindlessly to carry out your voice Expect me to live carelessly amidst reverse psychology Then drown me in your jealousy As I explore society's free choice Have I made you proud Have I made you love me Have I made your faults turn out ok If I'm a puppet then where's my strings? Maybe I don't wanna dance to your beat Oh, break me if you please But I warn you I will hop back on my feet You ain't seen the best of me You can try to multiply the little lies you placed inside my head But too bad I have grown wise and realized the roots of what you said I won't make you proud I won't make you love me I won't make your faults turn out ok You can stand there like my master and conduct this sad disaster like it's yours to break You can cover me in plaster but I'll break free even faster and live life today You can't hold me anymore You can't control me anymore
4.
Untamed 04:54
Hey little lady, how's the world look from the tip top of your toes? You watch it go You're heavy footed but you move in the direction the wind blows To feed your soul. You're into it You gotta tattoo on your left wrist and a ring inside your nose. And I suppose That you're the kinda girl who loves to love but has her qualms with those those who oppose the way you go She says if structured life is what you seek Than I suggest you get some sleep You're better off in dreams than right here next to me ...As I scream in my.... Chemical brain, semi-insane When I leave town you'll know I came Gluttonous old soul, but covered in holes Addicted to life of the untamed Is there a goal in mind or are you just a prisoner of the thrill, just like a pill When you grow old will you say that you aimed to live or aimed to kill What's standing still? Yeah, answer that You'll never find what you are looking for, no, no, no Don't ya know, don't ya know, baby love That you're never gonna find what you're looking for No, no, no
5.
Poker Queen 03:45
She had a half-grin She reeled me right in With a love song she said she can't sing alone So we locked eyes We sang our parts right And, baby, then I said goodbye to control But I can't read her ways and I'm frustrated At the way she fans the flames that she created I'm on my knees sayin' please show your cards to me But this poker queen's got me all mixed up in everything If I'm what you need tell me now or baby let me be 'Cause I'm finished here not that you care my dear But just so you know See I could play cool Go by the game rules But that's exhausting love And it ain't my game to play But babe, you hit me With every pretty little look you give See I hold them close so if it's nothing please stop today I played my last hand I took her chips and ran And saved her next from a life of guessing You're welcome very much Save your school boy crush Run while you can
6.
Not Yet Home 03:55
Riddle me this, riddle me that I've been struggling with the facts And I'm feeling worthless part of the circus with a cliche balancing act Give me a beat, some rhythm to speak Cause all hell's broke loose in me And there's no contain' I'm not complainin' But I can't hide if you don't speak Cut back to reality, don't know what's happening I can't fool myself, don't think I'm Better off alone, I can't hold my own I'm taking one step up, two back I'm clinging to the broken road But falling through the cracks I'm not yet home I had the tick of my future clock I had a spot on the first place block See, I had perfection, missed my direction Now I'm trembling, dealing with shock I had a head that fit in my chest I had a heart that was under arrest But I let the heat knock me off my feet Before I could taste the rest I can't find my own way out I'm knee deep in doubt and I need savin' And I can't kiss another mouth It'd be without my hearts permission
7.
Are you happy now? Are you smiling? Are you happy? Have I kept you from crying? Would you like me to sing Just one more song, let's see My throat is raw and it is swollen But I'll give you anything that you need Don't mind me I'm your man in the middle Who nods his head and I speak very little But there's a mountain underneath my rug Where I sweep away the painful stuff Yes I say, put your bow to the fiddle Do a dance and find a tune you can whistle I'll do anything you want me to Slowly dyin', right here in the middle If it's cool with you Am I funny yet? Am I caring? Am I reserved or shall I be daring? Have I swept you off your feet? Have I strummed right on beat? Have I said the right thing? I can't tell what you think and it kills me Are you entertained? Are you tipsy? Do you feel fixed or are you even listening? Here's my pain, you can smoke it And get high, even though you provoked it But I'm glad it gets you through your day Yes I'm glad I give you words to say Do you love me? Do you love me? Please just love me Oh please, I need something Someone loves you Yes deeply loves It's me that loves you And I constantly show you But you do everything to flee from me Stop your cryin' You're not dyin' Long live the king
8.
There's a fine line between The coward and the dreamer You were my nicotine But now I've grown meaner 'Cause I'm cuttin' you out You smoked every ounce of me Hey pretty girl, yeah you The one I've been singing to All those tunes, I want 'em back They don't belong to you anymore They did once, but now they're wasting away Oh, oh why'd you keep me around so long? Oh, oh I knew you'd leave me here all along Are you blind or just selfish For love and attention You gave me those open doors And I got trapped in them 'Cause I'll never be The prince that you wished me to be I wouldn't change a damn thing I did once, but that's lost on my All my failures and tortures are apart of me I hate to tell you, but scars are the face of this soul I could yell this to Brooklyn Or the deserts of Texas But when you're in front of me I'm everything but reckless I just wanna please The master who's pulling my strings But that doesn't change The things that you did to me Consider this real 'cause reality's dead to me Quiet I seem But I'm louder than the songs that I sing I can't tell if you're from My God or from Satan You're so close to perfect But girl I'm aching Under your spell I'm shaking like hell in this trance Oh, I tried to ween myself from the fairytales But outside the movie screen There's nothing but painful yells Screaming for something That I could give you easily
9.
Weary 03:24
Well, I hate my tongue that's where I'm at My brain gets sick, but when it's back It can't fight the mess so falls back in it's trance My heart's the wise one of the three The problem is it's never seen So as they're sabotaging me Raise the curtain Shine the spotlight Ah, well I've grown weary Ah, 'cause you can't hear me I mean well but you see nothing more I hate my tongue that bad disease And the brain that sleeps on me If this here heart could learn their schemes Then our end could trump the means If you'd just stopped your surface screams Opened your eyes and tried to see I'm not as bad as I may seem Give me some room to be redeemed
10.
Well, this little cowgirl she's got pistols 'round her waste She chooses to a likin' while they sit quiet in their place You can roll, but you can not roll over them You can roll, but you will not orll over them Well, my little she's chalked full of options here But this hip pocket baby's sayin goodbye, goodbye dear She can roll, but she will not roll over me She can roll, but she will not roll over me Her innocence is gone I must retreat I keep one eye open when I fall asleep And if she tries to stain me with deceit Then I will knock those stompin' boots right off her feet Little miss pristine I think your heart has grown numb All those years you made yourself believe by playin' dumb That you can roll, but you will not roll over me Newsflash little lady I see past your pretty face But this hip pocket baby's here to put you in your place You can roll, but you will not roll over me Your innocence is gone I must retreat I keep one eye open when I fall asleep And if you try to stain me with deceit Then I will knock those stompin' boots right off your feet The clock hits noon The whole saloon is outside on the street Oh so soon, til click-bang-boom The broad is off her feet She'll learn through noise, hip pocket boys have got themselves some fight Came accross as coy but we aint no toys to be used to your delight Our innocence is gone you best retreat And keep one eye open when I fall asleep 'Cause if you try to stain us with deceit Then we'll knock those stompin' boots right off your feet
11.
6'4" with the guts that could top it A pair of jeans and a skull ring pocket Twice the fight of the boys in the projects Timmy T. had a heart like a rocket Brother Benny had a qualm with the street gang Got jumped all alone in the cold rain Timmy T. handled things in his own way Put a body in the ground on the next day Here's your view from the bars learn to like it Your jumpsuit, keep it clean, we don't wash it Look at me funny and you'll sleep inside the closet I'm the boss your the punk try to fight it Timmy T. took the challenge of the tough guy Cocked his head to the side said "Me oh my" Threw a jab to the base of his left eye And made himself a name on the inside He said, someone send an angel I've been livin' in the fire all my days Someone send an angel 'Cause the devil keeps guidin my ways Someone send an angel I got a soul that screams to be saved But if the world gets easy, where will that world leave me anyway Timmy's girl came to visit on the weekends About a year slipped away she got thinkin' There are things Timmy T. just ain't givin' She wrote a letter sent her man off the deep end Timmy T. went all crazy on the inmates A couple tears tatted right on his cold face Solitary was his home for some long days All alone with his thoughts as his company Timmy prayed to a God he hadn't met yet Said I'm weak, takes a lot to admit that If I surrender will you help me get my life back And Timmy T. started off on a new track Someone sent an angel He'd been livin' in the fire all his days Someone sent an angel And the devil stopped guiding his ways Someone sent an angel He had a soul that screamed to be saved See the world ain't easy But Timmy T. kept breathing anyway Timmy T. walked the yard in his old age Saw a boy, reminded him of his old ways Looked in his eyes, saw the pain comin his way Said son take a seat ill tell ya somethin I used to walk around proud just like you do All I needed was my fist and the wrong dude That don't last when the world falls around you The devil's big if you let the devil own you That day I met my angel I'd been livin in the fire all my days That day I met angel And the devil stopped guiding my ways That day I met my angel I had a soul that screamed to be saved See the world ain't easy But I'll keep on breathing anyway
12.
Utopia 05:20
Hello portrait town I can't hear a sound above the violins Ain't no need to frown As the black and white utopians Don't try to slip a drink You'll be sure to sink if you test your fate You need the penthouse suite As you tap your feet into heaven's gates Hold on to what you've been told Stick with the old, dont ask questions But hold on to all of your gold There ain't no one but you Hold on to history Say, if it worked for them itll work for me Wait, hold on 'cause I don't think That all your talkin is true You're floatin' proud off the ground In your big hot air balloon See there's a world out there livin' cold and scared i think theres room for ya But you would never dare leave your cozy white suburbia You can't see them bleed even in your six inch heals But at least you say your prayers before your three course meals Sit up straight, be great, there ain't room for failin' In this place, no grace, that's just wishful thinkin' Open wide, don't cry, you will thank me later When you're blind you'll find life is so much better "I fly by the moon in my hot air balloon" They sing, "I fly by the moon in my hot air balloon" You think you're so much better But you can't see past your mirror You can't pretend forever Your pretentious souls will wither
13.
I see good, I see beauty I see past all the thing that you did to me I see passion, and I see dreamers Above the beat down city I can see the streamers Take a little look, take a look sometime The night ain't dark if you learn to shine through everything, shine through everything Once upon a time Peter Pan did not fly He drank his whiskey and he locked himself inside While all the world was bright He hung his head so he could cry, cry, cry While the whole neighborhood was livin' up their lives All the kings horses and all the kings men Couldn't strap pretty little wings on him Until he saw the light on the otherside I saw your face, I saw it beamin' I saw your broken heart and then I saw your healin' I saw your mountains, I saw your hunger I saw your sleepless night and then girl I saw your slumber Maybe just maybe I think too much And I miss out on the hopeful stuff that carries me, that carries me On the otherside On the otherside, yeah On the otherside, we'll see you On the otherside

credits

released December 31, 2012

Bradley Rhodes: Vocals, guitars
Sammy Duis: Bass, organ, piano, guitars
Tyler Duis: Drums, percussion

Cover photo by Brian Johnson
Cover art by Dan Tello
All songs written by MELODIME
Recorded by Sammy Duis at Second Stall Studio
Mixed by Sammy Duis
Mastered by Billy Wolf
Produced by Sammy Duis

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